Friday, August 28, 2009

He loves me, he loves me not., He loves me...

Two days ago, I read in Philippians about Paul, and how he had learned to be content in all situations. The Lord really convicted me of this and I started praying that in every situation whether in plenty or in "famine" I would be content. Well, today I am at war with my flesh. It actually started last night, when I was really craving some me time. But what I wanted to do wasn't going to work out, so this morning, I started to do what I always do when I get upset; I start to snowball. One problem leads to another, and I dwell on them and it makes me even more sad. So today in tears, I explained to Joel my desire to be content and that I just needed him to pray for me, that I would be able to conquer this battle. Of course Joel felt horrible and it was his desire to reward me for all my hard work, and give me what I wanted...that is what makes him so wonderful. But what can be done? Nothing right now, except for me to be thankful for what I do have. So today is one of those days where I am tempted to question whether God really loves me or not. I KNOW that He does, but sometimes it doesn't feel like it.

So far today has not been a red shoes day.

3 comments:

Hannah said...

Hang in there! We all have our days! Hope yours gets better! love ya!

silk purse said...

Let me begin by saying what a charming and sweet name that you have for your blog!.., Though it doesn't always feel like it, and naturally therefore sounds trite, and like a pat answer, rest assured; ( as I trust that deep down in your inner most being you already know); God does indeed love you very much!

Blessings from Silken Purse

Hannah said...

thank you all for your sweet encouraging words.